The Truth…
I am a house
officer , currently working in one of GH in Johore.
As a junior
doctor,all u think about at all times is your work and work only…
Its seemed
that your brain capacity has deescalate so that only work-related things are
able to be processed and executed correctly.Its hard to describe by only
words..its an experience only “us “ know.
Im not
writing to say all these or to tell the whole world about my hard life.It
connected to one incident recently that really gave a knock on my head…
I’ve been
planning to write this since the very first day it happened.Like I said..i din
have time.It keep running in my head but only now I get the chance to spit out
what felt…
The date
1/9/2012 can never be erased..perhaps forever…
The date I
lost a friend who is very dear to me..the one that I never thought of leaving
me..at least not this early…
Now
everything seemed to make sense to me.
Balqis Amira
Mat Hasan…
I got to
know her since we were 13.Who knows a simple thing like that lead up to an
unconditional companionship…
Its all
started one night 13 years ago…
At about
12midnight.
Lapar…aq x
dapat tido..biasanye lapa macamane pon still je bole tahan .bantai tido..
Pikir nak
mkn ape,tgk locker ape pun xde..kuar dorm.duk dalam pun bukan bole tido..turun
tingkat 2,stop kejap tgk aspura…senyap sunyi..malam sepi sume org dah
tido..malam2 amik angin malam pun best…agak2 kenyang makan angin,cadang nak
naik dorm balik.harap2 bole la tido..esok nak skolah lagi..kang x leh bgn lak..
Dalam
perjalanan balik,aq nmpak kelibat sorang rakan setingkatan pon xtido mcm aq..
“Mo,ko x
tido lg?” name die momo..
“blom ..aq
nak masak megi …eh ko lak bwat ape?” balas momo ringkas..
Kami x rapat
walau satu tingkatan,tak pernah cakap or kenal momo sebelum ni..
“ermm…aq
xleh tido..lapa..” separuh segan tapi aq Nampak kat tangan momo ade megi pama
sebungkus..
“owhhh…jomla
teman aq amik air panas kat bawah..bole mkn sekali..” balas momo ..die mmg
ramah..
Kitorang
gerak turun tingkat satu..water dispenser kat bawah..aq berbual ringkas..tp
ntah kenape xleh berenti bercakap..momo mmg peramah,sekejap je dah rase selesa
dgn die..
Dalam
perjalanan naik ke dorm momo,kitorang terserempak dgn eip…
Balqis amira
ni name glemer die eip…tp mase ni kitorang x panggil die eip lagi..
“Eh aqis,ko
pun xtido lg?” sapa kami hampir serentak…
Sebenarnye
kitorang pon xrapat sgt dgn eip mase ni..
“aah nak g
sidai baju kat belakang” mmg xtau takut budak ni,malam2 ni bole bantai cuci
baju..ade hati pulak nak g sidai kat belakang hostel …ampaian depan dorm penuh
katanye.
Aq ni mmg
dasar penakut..xberani aq nak offer nak teman…
“eh qis meh
la join kitorang mkn megi..kat dorm aq” ajak momo ..
Megi
sebungkus je dalam hati aq,nak share 3 org cukup ke..hmm tapi dah tuan punya
megi yang offer, aq nak kata ape pulak kan…
“oh bole
je..nnti aq join korang..”balas eip sambil bergegas ke belakang hostel..ramah
jgk..
Mungkin
takdir tuhan,malam tu titik permulaan persahabatan kitorang sampai
sekarang...hanye sebungkus megi pama..
Momo rapat dgn eida…aq rapat ngan syu..kitorang selalu lepak
sekali dan mulai tu jugak kitorang berlima semakin rapat..
